The Enigma of Kitty

December 9, 2020
Prologue
It was June 2016. I just finished the 8^th grade and was about to enter the 9^th grade. My life revolved around uploading videos about The Blockheads (a Minecraft rip-off) and Roblox. I was an innocent lad who stayed away from mischief and studied hard in my college classes. There wasn’t a hint of lust present in me. Even back then, however, I was a loner. I did not have any friends from the real world that I interacted with and I would get through this summer just like all the other summers—by socializing in Chatango chats while doing my college homework and playing video games.

One would find me in https://novastormchat.chatango.com on a typical day. After the 0mi incident, I was scarred from the trauma. I was scared about the possibility that someone from Chatango would find a way to kill me or to hack my YouTube channel. YouTube was everything to me.  I built a whole community of Blockheads lovers. However, little did I know that my YouTube channel would lose all meaning to me in a couple of months.

Chapter 1: Wild Kittycatismine Appeared!
               Out of nowhere, a wild Kittycatismine appeared in nova’s realm. Although the name seemed innocent and child-like, this very person left a permanent scar on my life. At first glance, Kitty seemed like an out-of-place role-player that only wanted to gain more information about best boy Acecadet. She started as a lurker but quickly warmed up to others in the chat. Her eccentric nature was quickly revealed through her posts. Who the hell is this Kittycatismine and where did she come from? A quick search from the reliable best bot Bros allowed me to conclude that Kittycatismine came from the evil domain Tgarr2, a Pokémon roleplay chat.


After some time elapsed, the enigmatic cat endlessly asked me to skype with her. However, I barely even knew this person. Why would I skype with a total stranger? What would we even talk about? Could Kitty be one of 0mi’s goons from 4chan that is secretly plotting revenge? Despite all these fearful thoughts in mind, I agreed so that she would end her incessant spamming.



OK. There’s no way in fucking hell that this voice is real. Kitty doesn’t even sound like she’s entered puberty yet. I’m literally talking with a damn eight-year-old from the internet. This has to be a catfish; he must be one of those lonely guys living in their parents’ basement acting like a troll for his one amusement during this long and boring summer vacation similar to the story with 0mi, I thought to myself. Although the call was brief, I was overwhelmed with a large wave of confusion. I tried probing Kitty about her real identity. What is your age? How old are you? What is your name in real life? However, every time I asked the question, she would give an answer different from the last one. Her words could not be taken seriously. I know that the best idea would have been to just ignore the troll and move on to something else, but I was wildly entertained by this strange entity—I needed to learn more.

Chapter 2: The Impulsive Kitten
               Kitty never hesitated to speak her mind. If she were ever horny, she would let the whole chat know that she was horny, leaving Nova to question what exactly she was doing behind her computer screen. If she felt suicidal, she would let the whole chat know that she wanted to slit her wrists. Conversely, her profile pictures never made any sense and would literally be a random ugly picture taken from the internet. Kitty’s odd behavior led many in nova to think that she might be autistic or might be suffering from some mental disorder, which most likely was the case. For example, Kitty kept trying to win Acecadet’s heart but the love was always one-sided, thereby deepening Kitty’s state of depression; how cruel of Ace!



Kitty did not really have boundaries. As a means of alleviating both of our boredoms, we decided to play Roblox with each other. Kitty was completely new to Roblox, so I introduced Kitty to the basic controls by playing a couple of obbys (obstacle courses). She would often say strange things in the chat, which would often get censored by the game itself. However, we relied more on discord’s voice chat rather than the game’s text channel. Kitty would often get very close to my avatar, nearly humping my avatar in front of everyone. We weren’t even dating or anything and I thought she liked Ace more than me. I still couldn’t completely trust her. Was she even who she claimed to be? What was Kitty’s true gender?

Chapter 3: Drago’s First Anime


I did not really watch anime prior to June 2016. I watched Pokémon when I was 9 years old, introducing me to the world of Chatango; I’ve also watched The Slayers and Chobits along with a few Studio Ghibli movies. I’ve also played anime-related video games such as the Tales of series, Soulcalibur, The Legend of Zelda, and Super Smash Bros. Outside of that, I had almost no anime knowledge and I would not have considered myself an anime fan. But then my whole world flipped.



In either June or July 2016, a Novian introduced us all to rabb.it (a video streaming sharing service)—perhaps Kitty or Acecadet. On a boring summer afternoon, I joined Kitty’s rabbit room; sadly, my memory of the small details is not crystal clear but is very close to reality. Perhaps we watched a couple of random YouTube videos for fun. Kitty went through my search history, discovering the deepest and darkest secrets about me. 



For amusement, we trolled https://novastormchat.chatango.com with anonymous accounts where our IP could not be detected, making Nova fear for their lives. I introduced her to my YouTube channel and my friends from the Blockheads like 99wolves. Essentially, we were having a jolly old time. I discovered that Kitty did have some bizarre tendencies of putting disturbing stuff and having strange music tastes; I did not know when to take her seriously. My suspicions of Kitty faded over time and I learned to relax and be myself around her; she was not someone from 4chan who was trying to kill me.





One day in July 2016, Kitty ended up putting her favorite anime at the time, Ao Haru Ride. It was basically a generic high school romance anime. I could not stand the artwork, I hated reading the subtitles, and I hated the cliches (such as dramatic use of wind to alleviate tension). Of course, I did not say this directly to Kitty because I did not want to disrespect her tastes. Rather, I asked Kitty if we could watch the anime Chobits. Aside from Pokémon, Chobits was the first anime that I ever watched. I was 9 years old (2011) at the time and would watch it with my sister on Netflix when she would come home from college or work. I suggested to Kitty that we watch Chobits because I wanted to show her what good romance was; I also got Charizardf1 to join our rabbit room. Kitty, Char, and Drago were like the three musketeers in their rabbit room. Chobits is basically about a young boy named Hideki that falls in love with his persocom (human computer). There were many fun moments that we all enjoyed such as panty shots and moments of fear such as when Chi was kidnapped. Unfortunately, all good things come to an end. Wanting to see more of these silly rom-com moments, I did not want to end my anime journey here. I needed to find a way to quench my thirst for romance. Essentially, Kitty was the catalyst that awakened my love for anime.

Chapter 4: Drago’s First Hentai


               In August 2016, I ended up watching 16 unique anime. To begin with, Charizardf1 recommended Kore wa Zombie Desu ka? (Is This a Zombie?), which we also watched together. We also watched a couple of episodes of Baka to Test to Shoukanjuu together. Subsequently, to satisfy my thirst for romance and overall boredom, I began to watch anime by myself, completing titles such as Onegai☆Teacher and Ai Yori Aoshi. You've probably never heard of these titles but that was because I had a mediocre taste at the time. 




When my high school freshman year started in 2016, I quit YouTube. YouTube was basically my whole life and everyone at school knew me as the person with a YouTube channel. I had to constantly tell everyone at school that I quit YouTube and I hated the fame that came with it. Playing Roblox and Blockheads was not as rewarding anymore. I was only doing it for fun, and I was not getting paid for making videos. I stopped talking to the people from the Blockheads, including 99wolves. Thus, watching anime replaced my need for uploading new videos.






 Looking at these cute 2D anime girls was indeed better than looking at a bunch of blocky characters (from The Blockheads). I found myself watching riskier anime such as Sekirei and Haganai, which has light fanservice.


 Knowing that I was beginning to develop a liking towards ecchi anime, on one fateful day, Kitty ended up putting a dubbed anime, which surprised me because she would normally only put subbed anime. Apparently, some mind control was happening with a son and a mother. I had a feeling of great unease and tension when listening to the background music. I did not really know the true definition of fanservice at the time. I was a little shocked when the boy pulled out his penis, but thankfully the penis was censored. I guess this classifies as an ecchi anime, I thought to myself. The next minute, the boy was putting his penis inside the girl’s butt and he had no control over his actions. This is not normal, I thought to myself. I immediately left the rabbit room and felt fear run all through my veins. What if I was in the living room watching this instead of my bedroom? What if my parents walked in on this? I was not even wearing headphones either at the time. What was the intention of this? Was Kitty trying to get me in trouble? Was Kitty masturbating on the other side of that screen on rabbit? Did Kitty think I watch hentai just like her? Did Kitty not know that I was a minor? Despite these questions that feared my mind, a part of me was curious. A part of me wanted to see the rest. Actually, scratch that. The mother was not that good looking, and the boy did not know what “cumming” was and instead said he was “peeing”.


At the time, I was a law-abiding boy, and I was scared to go on sites that were meant for adults like HentaiHaven, Pornhub, and 4chan. So, to satisfy my curiosity, I remained on the safe side of things and began watching hardcore ecchi (borderline hentai) anime such as To Love Ru and High School DxD. My eyes really liked what they were seeing, and I tried touching myself, but I did not know what I was doing at the time. It would take a couple more years for me to experience my first orgasm. Essentially, because of the hentai I was introduced to, my anime taste went to complete shit. For my whole freshman year, most of the anime I watched had large elements of ecchi.

Chapter 5: Rabbit Adventures


I had an easy course load overall in my freshman year, which allowed me to watch 3+ hours of anime every day. Occasionally, I would stream some ecchi anime on rabbit and would invite Novastormchat for anyone to join. S A N D B O Y, Isocracy, and Unclestew would often join the room; however, I banned Codie from joining my room. Sometimes, we would not even watch anime at all. Some things I put to cast were Mozart music, Tales of Vesperia gameplay, and my YouTube channel’s videos. Around this time, Char was serving his country and wounded up injured in the hospital, so the rabbit atmosphere did not feel the same compared to the summer days of watching Chobits. When the room was empty, Goomer would occasionally join to make me feel less lonely. He added some commentary here and there to cheer me up. However, I do not recall these interactions in detail, and I did not know that Kitty was interacting with Goomer behind the scenes (in 2016-2017).



Despite this relationship, Kitty would often say unpredictable things to me like “I lost my virginity to char,” which I did not know how to respond to. Kitty and Char both shared sexual jokes with each other constantly, often making no sense. They joked about horse fucking and wanting dick. They joked about how penis is king. Kitty even made the account PenisIsKing and gave me the password to it, which I still have access to today. It is unbelievable that Char did not first make that account. For some reason, Kitty was against the idea of Char being on the account. I was trying to justify to Kitty that because Char serves in the military and is saving lives in the Louisiana flood, he should at least be able to have access to PenisIsKing, to which Kitty responded with “you’re rlly not getting this. It is battle, drago. If you wanna choose char’s side then go right ahead”. From this, I realized that Kitty actually had the ability to reason and had a smart side to her; so, does this mean that she was acting when she was choosing to be dumb in front of Novastormchat?





 Kitty was triggered at the constant banning from her enemy Charizardf1. That is why she was so against Char in every way. But Kitty does bring up a good point: if Char was a responsible and good-hearted person, he should not incessantly ban Kitty for no reason. I find it remarkable that Kitty endured Char’s suffering for so long without leaving Nova. Eventually, Char was demodded for abusing Kitty. In reality, the relationship between me and Charizardf1 is far greater and lasted longer than the relationship between me and Kitty, so naturally, I would cling to Char’s side. However, it is much easier to have fun with Kitty than with Char because of the age gap; Kitty is closer to my age.


Sometimes, while doing homework, Kitty and I would listen to music on plug.dj. I remember that she would sometimes joke around with the videos she put on. My music tastes did not necessarily align with her music tastes. She would often get bored of my anime openings. I did not like the nightcore music or remixes that she put on. But it was a good platform to just vibe in.

In late September 2016, I finally got my answer to the question of “What is Kitty’s true gender?”. I got Kitty to post a selfie of her that included the words “I love you Drago” in the picture. This was a new level of cringe. We verified that Kitty was a girl, but she was not good-looking in the slightest. Her hair was a mess and her eyes looked like she was a psychopath.






In November 2016, I had the opportunity to meet Kitty’s mother, Lonelyeyes2102. Well, it was probably either her mother or her sister. My memories of the little details are also unclear concerning Lonely. It sounded like Lonely had a Mexican accent, which is believable since Kitty lives near Mexico. Many Novians thought Kitty and Lonely were the same person when they were not. When I was in a voice call with them, I realized that one thing was certain: they were both weirdos. Kitty was telling me reasons why hentai was better than real porn in front of her own mother; to them, it was just casual ordinary conversation. Around this time, questions continued to arise in the chat. Does Kitty have autism? Does Kitty have a mental problem? I began to say weird sexual jokes thanks to Kitty, and people like Charizardf1 and Destructified began showing concern for me. I began experimenting with Kitty in DMs with roleplaying. She was the abusive type who likes to treat her boyfriends as slaves for whatever reason. This relationship did not last for too long, however; a week at most.


Kitty and I had many weird adventures. Sometimes, when I was afk from my rabbit room, Kitty would put on disturbing stuff. For example, I once caught her reading gay child porn when I came back. Other times, we were playing truth or dare. The weirdest dare I remember was when Kitty told me to tell Chris to shave his vagina. 





It was January 2017. Char had to leave once again for military duties, and he entrusted me with his main accounts during his absence. Then, either Unright or HMado finally gave Kitty mod. After many months of torture, Kitty was finally able to take revenge and say “-ban Charizardf1”. However, this was not real revenge because the real Char was on a leave of absence.


Your Lie in April really was not that good. I watched it mainly for the music. I did not cry at all during the final episode when the show revealed that the girl died. It was so unmemorable too. Kitty got offended by my lack of crying. Clannad is better.

Chapter 6: Kitty’s Depression


Kitty’s family is depressing. Children ought to have the stability to grow into healthy adults, which Kitty did not receive. I feel like parents should undergo some sort of training in order to be parents because some parents do not know how to raise their kids. Kitty’s siblings also had problems related to drugs and mental disabilities. I feel like if a parent’s child has a condition (such as autism), it is not a good idea to have more kids due to a higher chance of that kid also having the same condition. I do not fully know the reasons and circumstances so I will not comment too much about it. We are victims of our own environments and the environment that she grew up in was not the best. I am a powerless individual on the other side of the United States. I cannot do anything. The environment has already shaped who she is.



Around April 2017, I believe Kitty and Goomer met in real life. I do not blame her for doing this. She wanted to escape her environment. She wanted to escape the monotony of her everyday life. Kitty (indirectly) revealed Goomer’s name along with a picture with her boyfriend (most likely) Goomer, which was foolish of her. At the time, many did not understand what was truly going on. Some novians called her boyfriend ugly, to which Goomer defended himself in the chat but most people failed to notice. I did not even fit the pieces together until late 2020; a lot of personal stuff was going on in my own family, so I did not really have time to focus on other people’s drama or love lives. Kitty made another useless account named “weebrachan” and possibly used Goomer as the profile picture (although cannot say for certain). Kitty really did not understand that she needed to be more careful with revealing things on the internet.





I sincerely felt bad for Kitty. In late June 2017, Kitty attempted suicide. The person that brought this to my knowledge was Lonelyeyes2102. Lonely told me that she was dying in the hospital because she cut her vein. I do not remember or know what caused her to do this. If Kitty and Goomer were close to each other, where was Goomer at this time? Why did Goomer not prevent this attempted suicide? Of course, she survived and came back to Novastormchat.



On the other hand, Kitty denied these allegations that she killed herself. A lot of things are still a mystery. Perhaps Unright has more clues than I do.

Chapter 7: The Egghead Meme





Around June 2017, the egghead meme became popular. With an egghead profile picture, Kitty created the Facebook account “Drago Nova,” and attempted to become friends with Jaqureus. Kitty really did not care about looking silly and unprofessional in front of others. Perhaps Kitty’s choice of username influenced me to create my own alternate YouTube channel with the same name.

Chapter 8: The Drago Account


Around July 2017, I joined Kitty and Ace’s rabbit rooms occasionally. They were cool friends. However, I was not really interested in the bicycle anime they were watching. Also, in the same month, Kitty bought me the original account Drago. However, I feel like it was not clear that the account was bought for me and I was under the impression that Kitty was the main owner. I feel that I was not grateful enough for Kitty’s kind actions. I think that Kitty should have asked if I would like the gift though before proceeding to buy it. 


I was never a Drago. My identity lies in the username Dragonite. Dragonite seems like an admin name with authority and power. Drago just seems like a little kid nickname unworthy of achieving extraordinary power. That is why I recently bought the original account Dragonite in November 2020. I feel bad for being careless enough to let the Drago account die. But at the time, I was too busy with school to be bothered to log in. In the end, Chatango accounts are worthless and we will all migrate to Discord one day. I am sure Kitty can forgive me.

Chapter 9: Brawlhawla Adventures


               It was August 2017. I became a sophomore in high school. From here on, the number of anime I completed in a month started to drastically decrease. My highest number of anime completed in one month was in May 2017 with 27 anime. I only completed 2 anime in August 2017. I had to help my family with my sister’s wedding for most of August with the remaining time being spent on summer homework in early to mid-August.





I had to take a couple of hours to study for subjects like English and World History; I had to write essays for English Honors over the weekends. I had to volunteer at my local library and my local middle school for community service hours. I needed to be competitive and stand out in order to have a chance of getting into a good school. I could not dedicate myself to 3+ hours of anime like freshman year. As a result, the number of times I had rabbit sessions with Kitty decreased; I also did not chat on Novastormchat as often. I joined Math Club and Anime Club. I continued going to Gamers Club. I made new friends and gained new experiences. I started going to anime conventions with people from my school.


               In October 2017, I started using Discord more frequently. Specifically, I joined my friend’s Discord server from in real life and we used that to work on our homework together and play Steam games such as Brawlhawla or VRChat. Since I did not have a gaming laptop, I mostly just lurked in the Discord voice chat and contributed to the conversation every now and then. Out of boredom, I invited Kitty to the Discord server; she was mostly a lurker. Brawlhawla was the one game my computer was able to run. 


While playing this game, Kitty randomly joined the call and started speaking for the first time. Well, not really speaking. She started moaning as if she were masturbating while we were playing Brawlhawla (me and two other friends). She told us that she masturbated with a brush and imagined that the brush was my cock while watching Pornhub. She said she was watching people masturbating and that she wanted to be like that with me someday. I jokingly told Kitty that she was leading me down a bad path in life. She left the chat disappointed and said she did not want to suck my cock anymore. This was her attempt at making me look bad in front of my in real-life friends. We had no sexual relations at all.





Then, she joined the call a couple of minutes later saying that she was trying to finger herself and started moaning again. We were laughing a lot and my friends said that I should not leave Kitty alone and that I should start masturbating along with her. Of course, I knew better and resisted the urge to join. She asked, “if we ever met in real life, would you fuck my butthole?” in front of my other friends. 

She really did not have any boundaries and did not care that I knew the other two people in the call in real life. I told her that in order to fuck, we first need to develop love and undergo marriage; however, she was impatient and wanted to fuck right away. I told her I would consider if I saw her STD record. Kitty made some more stuff up. She said that I showed her my dick on rabbit one time when I turned my camera off. This was not true and was meant for giggles.

 Eventually, she said that I would not get my dick sucked for free and left the call. This does seem strange now knowing that Kitty is devoted to Goomer. Reflecting on this now, I doubt Kitty had any real feelings for me and simply wanted to see how we would react. Kitty was more interested in people like Ace and Goomer. Thankfully, my two friends did not tell anyone about what happened in the call, although I had to explain to them how I knew and met Kitty and explained a part of my Chatango life to them.


         On a random night at 2AM, I heard my phone ring and noticed that someone from Skype was calling me. It was none other than Kitty. This was a strange thought considering that it was 3AM for her. Why was Kitty not asleep? Did she not have school the next day? Because I did. I sleepily responded with “kitty… do you know what time it is… I was sleeping… I have school the next day too… could it be the end of the world?” On the other side, there were no words to respond to my statements but rather the sound of laughter. Finally, she told me to go to sleep and hung up.

 That was a funny memory. I wonder what other things she would do at 2AM. Did she think I would not answer? What motivated Kitty to call me at 2AM on a random night?

Chapter 10: Drago the Otaku


               It was around February 2018 that many people at school found me weird. Most of my English homework essays were anime-inspired. I threw in many anime references in them and I am surprised my teacher was generous enough to give them an A+. One of them is already posted in the nova forums.


 We also had an assignment where we had to create a poster that mapped out our life goals. My poster had heavy anime references. I said I would move to Japan to become a true weeb. I included the ten commandments of Haruhi Suzumiya from Wikipedia, a man hanging himself from Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei (what I jokingly said I would do in my older ages when I was in absolute despair), and a yandere girl.


However, what really got people the most was a half-nude Rias Gremory from High School DxD. I chose Rias Gremory because many people knew about her. Rias Gremory is obviously not the best girl and we all know that the best girl is Satella from Re:Zero. In the section, I wrote dirty things about panties. I mentioned that “I even own a body pillow that’s covered in my liquids and germs.”


 Many people were amazed at my work of art. However, this poster stirred up controversy in another class due to mentions of lolis in the commandments of Haruhi section. I did not really read them carefully because I just copied and pasted them from Wikipedia, but perhaps people thought I was into anime lolis because of what was written on there. Everyone in my grade was talking about me for the next couple of days because of the controversial poster. 


To confirm your suspicions, I am not sexually attracted to anime lolis and I am not sexually attracted to children. I do not like hentai with lolis. To learn more about my sexual tastes in great detail, you can read my other post: The Melancholy of Drago. My sexual tastes are also briefly explained in the next chapter.





Perhaps part of this was Kitty’s fault for reintroducing me to anime. However, I found all these anime myself. It was my own curiosity and boredom that brought upon this creation. I pulled a whole all-nighter to paint this masterpiece. I got a perfect score on it too.



               Why did I take a satirical approach to the life poster assignment? I lost pleasure in doing things. I found my life boring. I did not know what I wanted to do in the future, and I found it way too hard to think about. I only had a vague idea of what I wanted to do. I found it easier and more enjoyable to make up a satirical future for myself that was filled with anime references based on the things I was watching at the time. I was lonely. One person called me an attention seeker as a result of my anime poster and other weird things I did in the class. He proceeded to hurt me and said I deserved pain.

In reality, I was inspired by the deep writing that he presented to the class. I wanted to become better than him. My method of being deep was by using anime references. Before using anime logic, I was getting B+ grades on my English essays. When implementing anime logic, I got A+ grades on my English essays for the rest of sophomore year. Anime is what motivated me to try hard. Because of anime, my English grade was saved. I got an A in the class. Thank you for introducing me to anime Kitty.

Chapter 11: Drago’s First Orgasm


Sometime in early 2018, I came home early from school. I was bored and looked up things to watch on YouTube. Inspired by my earlier rabbit adventures with Kitty where we put on some ASMR, I found a couple of cool ASMR videos. I eventually found a Japanese anime ASMR video where the girl was moaning. I began experimenting with my private parts.


It was then that I experienced my first orgasm. Embarrassingly, my first orgasm was from something anime-related. Despite this, I prefer listening to things like this with my ears rather than using my eyes for sexual stimulation. But what if Kitty never introduced me to anime? Would my sexual tastes be different today? I wonder what my first orgasm would have been to in an alternative universe. Hopefully, it would have been to a Japanese or Asian girl (with a kimono maybe).



I still listen to ASMR to this day instead of relying on visual porn. Thanks to Kitty, I discovered great content that satisfies my sexual desires. Of course, the YouTube algorithm also helped. I then journeyed to other sources, as explained in The Melancholy of Drago.

Chapter 12: The Rampage of Goomer


April 2018. Around this time, I was a moderator on Nova, albeit not that active. For whatever, reason Goomer decides to spam gay porn on Nova, which forced me to ban him. I do not really know what his reasons were. Because I was a nice mod and genuinely concerned for him, I tried talking things out with him in PMs to learn why he was posting gay porn, but he did not respond back. Perhaps he just wanted to ban himself in order to escape the curse of constantly returning to Nova. Maybe he was tired of the constant slander of being called a pedophile. However, I am not aware of the drama that happened at this time because I was busy with school. I wonder what Kitty thought about this careless behavior. He was eventually unbanned though.




August 2018 came. It was the start of junior year where classes just kept getting harder and harder. I was taking two advanced placement classes. My interactions with Kitty decreased further. We only talked on Nova and had zero rabbit sessions in late 2018. I was busy trying to finish reading 3 books for AP English Language, so I did not think deeply about interactions such as the one below.



(August 16, 2018) This just seemed like a good laugh, so I took a screenshot of this. I found it impossible that there was something going on with them. In fact, I did not even know they talked outside of Chatango. I was an oblivious child and I still am. For example, I still have no idea who Claw or Yiffy even are. But that’s because I’m occupied with school, meaning that Chatango drama should be the least of my concerns. Rowlie cracked the case way before me (2017) and I did not realize this until in late 2020. I am certain that he must be the one behind the Chatango Wikipedia entries.


For some reason, Goomer had an obsession with impersonating me with the account named “Dragonlte1127.” What is so special about me, though? Did Goomer take pleasure in saying things like “penis is king” or “anime girls are hot” while pretending to be me? Was Goomer ashamed of his true identity? Similarly, why did the creator of the Chatango Wikipedia pages try to frame me as being the one who created the Wikipedia pages?

Chapter 13: Drago’s Stress


For the first half of my junior year, I fell into a pitfall. I knew that it was hopeless. I knew that I would be abandoned just like all the other times. I slowly developed a crush on a girl in my AP Chemistry class. At first, I just wanted help with my lab reports, and I could not understand anything that was going on in that class. Then, we decided to visit the library every week or every other week to complete our homework. But I kept feeling guilty every single time. I kept having pessimistic thoughts. Why is she with me studying when she could be partying or having a great time with someone else? I was not even contributing much to anything. Nevertheless, I could not stop thinking about her. I kept telling her “I’m sorry” when there was nothing to be sorry about. In the end, she ghosted me.


 I was depressed for weeks. Friends can just easily forget and replace you. It was such a scary thought to me that someone could just straight up act like I do not exist the next minute and go on with their lives as if past events never happened. Perhaps this was because I lacked experience; this was the first time anyone ever ghosted me. This ghosting was to be expected due to my lack of friends and communication skills. I did not know what was normal and I lived most of my online life on Chatango and Discord.


It was hard for me to breathe in AP Chemistry where I had to see her every day. I had major panic attacks and it felt like I was dying; mini panic attacks also kicked in whenever I thought about her. It felt like there was sand in my arms sometimes. The last time I felt this emotionally distressed was when 0mi threatened to kill me. Except this was worse. A part of me felt that I could be stabbed with a knife anytime by her even though I knew this was not true. I knew everyone in the class was looking at me thinking that I was crazy. But I could not control those panic attacks. Sometimes I wish love did not exist.


To cope with this, I joined Robotics Club and learned a little bit of python. Except she was there. Teamwork was even harder because I feared for my life when she was present. Now, I know better, though. I am grateful that I stayed in Robotics Club despite the constant fear. I am confident that Robotics Club helped me get into most of the University of California schools that I applied to.





I hardly interacted with Kitty until February 2019 when the girl ghosted me. Kitty has helped me numerous times when I was feeling depressed. Moreover, the call with me, Goomer, and Kitty that is mentioned in Onoxdorf’s post happened on February 26, 2019, which was the day after the girl ghosted me. Thus, I did not really have the stamina to understand or question the vibe of the call. 

I was in a great state of depression and I felt very unmotivated with school. Everything seemed so pointless. The below conversation happened after a full day of panic attacks. This was the only voice call I had with them together. (null = Goomer)





I thought that they were just joking at first, but it probably turned out to be the real deal. I was not concerned with them at the time and I was more concerned at trying to stop the panic attacks and getting over that girl. Goomer and Kitty were helpful at trying to cheer me up from the dumps.


On the other hand, I feel like Kitty did not take her own advice. I feel like she ought to have interacted with others before resorting to Goomer. But maybe she did try. I guess it is harder when you have mental problems. 

Is there meaning to my sufferings? What is the end goal of all of this? Why do I try so hard when others don't? What even motivates me? I didn't know, yet I still did everything I was supposed to do. I persevered. I put my thoughts and feelings to the side to dedicate myself to school.

The below (private DMs) was in response to the girl ghosting me and my mentioning of panic attacks at school.





They say you do not know what you have until its gone. Now that Kitty is gone, I regret not thanking her enough for the advice she gave me. Kitty, if you are reading this. Thank you for saving me Kitty. You helped me overcome my fears.


Subsequently, I joined a couple of anime discords and made some new friends on the AP Discord. Now, I only visit those servers when I feel lonely.


On the other hand, one of life’s greatest questions is “Why does Kitty go on nova when she’s not a gamer?” which I still do not understand. She never played any Nintendo games with us. She mainly talked about her depression there and occasional anime talk. Below is one of my last discord conversations with her. After that, I became busy with AP testing.

The only noteworthy thing that happened after that in the junior year arc is the below screenshot of me and Goomer. It is more of just a silly picture though that does not reveal much. I feel like Goomer was a cool guy to interact with and I wish I had more opportunities to learn about him.



Chapter 14: Drago’s Senior Year
Senior year came. I took 4 AP Classes this time: AP English Literature, AP Calculus AB, AP Computer Science Principles, and AP Government. I had almost no time to check up on Novastormchat. In fact, I remember sending almost no messages when Nova moved to Discord for a short time. That is how inactive I was at the time. I was also active in Anime Club and Robotics Club. AP Calculus took up most of my time. In terms of my anime life, most of my senior year was me watching all the seasons of A Certain Magical Index and A Certain Scientific Railgun. Nothing noteworthy related to this story happened. I was finally socializing more in real life and Kitty basically became like a background character in the senior year arc. Then COVID-19 hit.

Chapter 15: Goomer Exposed


Kitty and Goomer both left Novastormchat sometime in either July or August. I did not really notice their disappearances for a while because I was so obsessed with watching and reading Re:Zero at the time. We first assumed that Kitty must have left Nova because she became busy with things in real life and was finally getting her life together. Or perhaps she killed herself. One day, Nova was voice chatting. It was the time when Dean, Spin’s friend, was there. A group of people joined a separate voice chat to talk about other things. The topic of Kitty was somehow brought up and Rowlie gave me the idea that Kitty might be with Goomer. I thought this sounded preposterous at first. I was not a member of Novastorm forums, and I did not view any of the forums. In fact, I forgot we even had forums until Rowlie brought it up to me.


I remembered that Goomer posted a comment on my YouTube channel long ago. It was a Pokémon Yellow Playthrough Video. His YouTube channel revealed his first name. I brought this knowledge to Rowlie and the pieces finally came together. Kitty mentioned that she met up with her boyfriend a couple of years ago with the same name as Goomer. The knowledge I gave them allowed us to confirm that Kitty met Goomer in real life. The picture below is the discussion feed on Goomer’s YouTube channel, which seems suspicious. The comments about Goomer being “sexy” are the most questioning. I wonder what other activities he is engaged in outside of Novastormchat.

However, my next action was fucking stupid. I commented something like “hey goomer mate come back to nova we miss you!!!” I deleted the comment a minute after posting it because I did not think of the consequences until after the fact. However, Goomer probably already got a notification of a new comment in his emails. That is why the next morning, the whole discussion section of Goomer’s YouTube channel was wiped clean. Goomer even left the Discord group that we were in together with Kitty. He probably went through other social media and deleted them too just to be safe. He will probably never reveal himself to Nova ever again. But why Goomer? Why did you have to reject me too? Despite the constant impersonation you did of me, I never once said that I hated you. 



Perhaps Goomer left the Discord group because he felt guilty about his relationship with Kitty. Maybe Goomer is a pedophile. But so what? What other choice did Kitty have? Her mom (Lonelyeyes2102) did not care for her. Kitty was constantly feeling depressed and suicidal. Kitty’s siblings are mentally unstable and not good role models. I am glad that Goomer took Kitty. Not because of the fact that Goomer is Goomer but because this way, she will have no reason to kill herself. She can have feelings of love and happiness instead of depression and loneliness.

Chapter 17: Drago’s Thoughts


Contrary to popular belief, I do not think an FBI investigation on Goomer will benefit anyone. It wastes our time trying to start a report. Kitty is harmed because she will be traumatized by her love being taken away from her. Kitty may lose hope of finding another suitable partner that understands her. Perhaps this hopelessness could lead to suicide. Goomer would potentially be locked away and have his life ruined. What do we get out of it? Is Kitty really in any more danger with Goomer than she was without Goomer? I think Goomer is Kitty’s main reason for living. Let them live happily and peacefully.


I wonder what Goomer does for a living. If Goomer really is living with Kitty right now, how is he supporting both himself and Kitty? Is Kitty capable of working a job? Does Goomer and Kitty live in the parents of Goomer’s house? Why did Goomer have to resort to Kitty? Why did Goomer not find someone his age? I would not sacrifice my love life to cheer some stranger up from depression that I found on Chatango. I feel that I should have higher standards than that. But people are different and maybe Goomer does not have that great of a career to brag about or that many in-real-life friends. Maybe Goomer did not go to college or even complete high school like Kitty. People have different circumstances and conditions.



Months went by without any interactions of Kitty and Goomer. Why did Kitty or Goomer not say anything about their disappearances? Because we were not worth anything to them. Novastormchat never took Kitty seriously. We laughed at her cries for help amidst her depression. All Char did was incessantly ban Kitty. We kept accusing Goomer of being a pedophile and threatening him. Nevertheless, we could not prevent anything between Kitty and Goomer from happening. We were just typical internet users. The environment shaped the way Kitty and Goomer were. They developed a liking for each other and found each other compatible. We are a Nintendo gaming chat here to have fun, not talk about controversial topics, and meddle in other people’s love lives (at least I think). Edit: March 13, 2021 - or maybe not lol


There were occasional times in Novastormchat where I can see that there are two anons lurking during controversial topics such as the Kitty and Goomer topic. I suspect that those two anons were probably Kitty and Goomer but maybe not. I feel like they should just stop coming to Novastormchat altogether. Their presence will only bring hate and controversy. However, I feel like we should hear all sides of the story before we make any assumptions and think poorly of people. Of course, this will never happen because I am sure they both decided out of their own volition to never show their face to Nova again.



   What is my opinion on Goomer?  Goomer should not go to Novastormchat because of the ostracism he will face. If Kitty and Goomer are both happy, then I think their relationship should be allowed. Laws are just set in place to protect people and both seem like they are doing fine. I do not think any less of Goomer as a result of his relationship with Kitty. However, leaving the Discord and making it impossible to interact with me and Kitty makes me feel like they are selfish. Did I not mean anything to them? Did Kitty and Goomer just forget about all those conversations and fun times we had on rabbit? Do they just not care about interacting with other people now that they have each other forever? Why did they not consider the feelings of others as a result of their ghosting? I never tried to harm you guys.

Edit March 13, 2021

After learning about a couple of other things, there was apparently an incident where Kitty found out Spin’s real-life name, whereupon Goomer doxxed Spin on Nova under the account “DemodDrago” with a furry profile picture, which is an event I did not know about until scrolling up the nova museum just now. Thus, Goomer is probably better off without coming back to Nova. It does not seem like he valued the time there other than talking to Kitty. I doubt Goomer actually hates me but I just wish that I understood his motivation for these actions and his obsession for making me look bad.

Chapter 18: Uwuchan01 Revisited


               Not having Kitty around Novastormchat made things dry. I had to deal with serious talk and read through serious conversations about Spin, Claw, and Yiffy every other day of which I do not understand what is going on at all. Kitty was like the comic relief character in Nova. I tried inviting more people through Chatango private messages to fill the void in the chat. But I could not find the right fit and they all kept leaving. Before you guys ask, I did not invite Uwuchan01.


 Uwuchan01 found me first and found the chat through my biography. I do not think that she is a good fit for that chat because of the heavy roleplay she does and her inability to assimilate with the chat. That is why Unright banned Uwuchan01. I am not Uwuchan01 and I have nothing to gain from pretending to be Uwuchan01. Kitty is not Uwuchan01 either. Uwuchan01 is a lonely high school female that loves Sailor Moon. In fact, Uwuchan01 should be considered an enemy because she took many Bros definitions and proceeded to leave Chatango without giving them to me. She would always call me names like “autistic” and “pedophile”, thereby worsening my depression. Thus, the void in the chat will never be filled. Kitty was a truly unique specimen.




I proceeded to find other Chatango chatrooms since people like Freezingbadlybutcool and Talon kept bullying me. I felt like I did not belong there, and I had the constant fear that I would be banned any minute. I caused so much calamity trying to bring new people that everyone blamed me when things started going wrong. Thus, by using best bot bros once again (rank command and seen command), I was able to find korenime-official and made new friends there.


 Even though they speak in Indonesia, I found it fascinating to try and talk to them. They were bot lovers just like me. However, it quickly grew boring when they were spamming the same commands on Kairy; they were extreme versions of me. It’s cool to just see how they interact while I throw a couple of English words at their faces from time to time. It is like they are paralyzed and shocked at seeing an outsider. I have even talked about Re:Zero to some of them and theories about what Subaru will do in Season 2 Part 2. 


I also found cartoonshow a couple years ago while watching anime and pulled up their Chatango website where I found Rennet. I also found Claw there too.

Chapter 19: Benlozoya


On November 21, 2020, an interesting character showed up to Novastormchat: Benlozoya. Right off the bat, many people suspected me of being behind the appearance of this mysterious intruder. This may be true because I did have links to the website in my bio and I did visit chats like cartoonshow. Benlozoya never revealed how she found us though, at least according to my knowledge.


I should also mention that on the same night when the new evidence of Goomer and Kitty being together was revealed, I posted on Stew’s discussion about anime waifus. I basically declared that silver-haired girls are the best along with the three best girls below: Emilia-tan, Echidna, and Tomori.








Surprisingly, Benlozoya decided to use the final of the three pictures as her profile picture of best girl Tomori. I did not think much about this choice at the time; I am a truly oblivious fool. What first threw me off was the fact that Ben was using complete sentences with periods and proper grammar, which is not something most people would do. These are not girly traits, so I was under the impression that Ben was a guy.



The next statement threw me off.



Benlozoya looked like someone I could relate to. Maybe we could be best friends and watch anime together. For one thing, he was an appreciator of silver-haired anime waifus. But because of his proper grammar and punctuation, I got the feeling that he was an older, more mature person that would not have time for such activities. Maybe he was working a job and business was slow at the time, so he was using Chatango to pass the time. I decided to take the risk even though I may regret it later. I decided to ask Benlozoya for a kiss. After constant rejection, maybe being gay is the right move after all.



In order for the kiss to happen, Benlozoya demanded a real-life picture of me to which I responded with the image below, which is Felt from Re:Zero. I was surprised that Benlozoya did not negatively react to the middle finger I gave him.



The next minute, all of Nova was speechless by the act they were witnessing.

Chapter 20: The Truth of Kitty and Goomer’s Relationship


A middle-aged man was the attention of Nova who appreciated silver-haired girls and was roleplaying with a catfish known as Smeargle who claims to be a girl. Benlozoya tried private messaging me on Smeargle, but unfortunately, my response rate on the Smeargle account is at an all-time low. I wonder what would have happened if I engaged in private messages while he was still active. He appeared only for a couple of days and did not stay for too long. I did not see him that often because I was working, and it was Thanksgiving vacation.





On November 25, 2020, I went on my ten-minute break during work around 12:10PM. I decided to open up Chatango since I am an anti-social loser. Then, everything was revealed. Unclestew called out Benlozoya and told him to log in to the Skater account. To everyone’s surprise, we found out that Benlozoya is Kitty. Unclestew is a literal god. 



Kitty began to confirm the details that everyone was curious about for months.





Kitty admits the Goomer should have found someone closer to his age. But she is still selfish enough to take Goomer for herself rather than doing what is best for him because Kitty has no one else to rely on. This also indirectly reveals that Kitty has either been keeping up to date through the Novastorm forums or was probably one of the anons while we were discussing the Kitty and Goomer topic. This means that Kitty most likely picked Tomori as her profile picture to get a reaction out of me.

 I actually put Tomori as a filler picture because having two would not be enough to justify that silver-haired girls are the best. At the time, I did not finish Re:Zero and I wanted to put Satella in place of Tomori on the list. However, I did not want to spoil myself in any way. Kitty knew that I liked silver-haired anime girls, so maybe she wanted to befriend me again on a new, undercover account. Or maybe Kitty wanted to please my sexual roleplay desires. Or perhaps the choice of profile picture on Benlozoya was a simple coincidence. What if I put a picture of Satella instead of Tomori back then? Would Kitty have chosen to look like Satella? If so, I would have probably been more attached to her and have gotten straight to the point in roleplaying.

Kitty has really evolved. She is typing actual sentences with punctuation and grammar. Did Goomer teach Kitty the basics of typing? I cannot believe Kitty had genuine feelings for Ace. It felt more like an act or a joke than actual love. And I feel like the love was one-sided anyways. What did Kitty see in Ace anyways? I would love to learn more about Goomer and Kitty, but sadly that will not be happening. I am sad that I was not able to witness this conversation live.





I agree with Kitty. Relying on yourself for love is more important these days. Many people can betray, backstab, and forget about you in an instant. Kitty left way before I got to see these messages. I wanted to tell her that I did not dislike her. She may have gotten the wrong idea that I disliked her since I was the one that presented evidence that Goomer was a pedophile.



I agree with Kitty on this one too. I doubt Goomer is trying to get with other younger girls besides Kitty. I am pretty sure Goomer is dedicated to Kitty. It is also clear that Kitty does not show signs of being unhappy with Goomer, so we should respect her decision.

In the end, personality is what truly matters in a relationship. I am surprised that Kitty has not had sex yet. It is not like you will go to hell if you have sex before marriage. That is a religious belief. But I guess it is whatever they are comfortable with. Oh, yea and that also implies that Kitty is probably under the age still. If both parents agree to their relationship, I don't think the police can do anything (not sure on this one).


Meanwhile, Talon only cares about playing Genshin Impact with other people. (lol)




I guess I cannot really argue with Kitty there. I have not yet experienced love and I do not think I ever will. I think it is harder for her to find love because of her mental condition. I think a better phrase is that Kitty found a serendipitous opportunity for love and captured it rather than saying Kitty was being taken advantage of. She could have pulled away at any time if she did not like the relationship.



Spin is a literal idiot for thinking that I am Kitty. Words cannot describe my frustration toward him. I must disagree with Kitty because I would like to hear the reasoning of Goomer and hear facts instead of speculation (which will never happen). I trust that Kitty can make decisions that will guarantee happiness for herself.