The Melancholy of Drago

by Dragonite1127 Thu Dec 17, 2020 11:34 pm

Drago Nova
December 17, 2020

The Melancholy of Drago

Prologue

─ ─ I heard voices full of hate.
─ Sounds which would not leave my ears.
─ ─ Words imbued with hatred followed me.
─ ─ It was frightening, so frightening and I could not bear it.
─ ─ I was being crushed by the pressure of this noise which did not obscure its malice.
─ It gripped onto my soul and would not let go.
Then, the world was both destroyed and recreated simultaneously.

            It is not like I have forgotten. I am pretty sure I remember where this place is, and I have actually seen this scenery in my dreams. However, outside of those dreams, I cannot recall what it looks like.

            But it is not like I forgot. Not at all. It is just that I do not have the proper cue I need to draw the memory out. Reality offers me no opportunities to remember. I am sure if I did try to recall it, if I even can, then I would not get the chance to do so.

            I mean, the person standing before me now has absolutely no connection to the reality I know.

“Do you have a wish?”

            The face of the man (woman?) asking me this in such placid tones keeps changing, never staying the same for long. The deepest parts of my psyche that weave this dream cannot seem to pin down its features. I am sure I have seen this face somewhere before. It simultaneously resembles everyone and no one.

            My answer must have been bland and noncommittal. That is why I cannot remember the response I receive. But the person listens to my reply all the same and then hands me some sort of container.

“This Box can grant any wish, no matter what it may be.”

It really does look like a box.

I squint my eyes as I examine it more closely. My vision is not poor. Despite this, I still cannot seem to see the Box clearly, even though it is so close. It is empty.

And something seems very wrong about that. It is like shaking an unopened box of cookies where you can feel the weight of the contents and hear them rattling around, only to find it is empty when you open it.

I look inside at the bottom of the box. Though there is not anything in there, I feel myself overcome by the uncomfortable sensation that something is trying to pull me within. I quickly avert my gaze.

“Use this Box, and whatever wish you could possibly have will come true. It does not matter what you ask for. You could wish eternal sorrow upon the entire human race, and I would not lift a finger to stop you. All I want is to see what kind of wishes you, all of you will make.”

Whatever I say next brings a smile to the other person’s face. I take the Box. But of course, I do not remember that, or this dream once I wake up.

by Dragonite1127 Thu Dec 17, 2020 11:46 pm

Chapter 1 That Girl
Ever since October of his junior year in high school, all Drago could think about was dying. He turned sixteen around time, but this special occurrence meant nothing. Taking his own life seemed the most natural solution, and even now he could not say why he had not taken this final step. Crossing that threshold between life and death would have been easier than swallowing down a peanut butter squid.

Perhaps he did not commit suicide then because he could not conceive of a method that fit the pure and intense feelings he had toward death. But method was beside the point. If there had been a door within reach that led straight to death, he would not have hesitated to push it open, without a second thought, as if it were just a part of ordinary life. However, there was no such door nearby.

I really should have died then, Drago often told himself. Then this world, the one in the here and now, would not exist. The present would not exist, and reality would not be real. At the same time, Drago could not fathom why he had reached this point, where he was teetering over the precipice. There were actual events that led him to this train of thought. Drago was lost in a gloomy, monotonous void.

It was as if he were sleepwalking through life, as if he were already dead but not yet noticed it. During his high school days, every day at 5AM, he would brush his teeth, throw on whatever clothes were at hand, and ride with his father to school. At 5:45AM, he started watching anime for the next hour. Perhaps anime was the only reason why Drago did not take his own life; watching anime at 5 in the morning was the highlight of Drago’s day. He found pleasure in looking at cute 2D anime girls. He could never find the same joy in real-life women as he did in anime women. Once 7AM started, his never-ending pain and suffering started, whereupon Drago went to class. Finally, when the day was over at either 10PM or 11PM, Drago masturbated. He did not masturbate to real porn, but rather hentai or simply pictures of anime girls. Like a person in a storm desperately grasping at a lamppost, he clung to this daily routine.

Drago only ever spoke to people in school when it was absolutely necessary. After school, he would wait for his ride, occasionally sleeping to pass the time. When he was picked up, his father always asked him how his day was to which he would always respond with “Good.” These pleasantries had no meaning to him and were just something to recite to acknowledge each other’s existences. When he arrived home, he would return to his room, sit on the floor, lean back against the wall, and ponder death and the failures of his life. He never admitted his true feelings about death toward anyone, including his parents.

The reason why death had such a hold on Drago was clear. One day in October, he began to develop an attraction toward a girl at school. Unable to lock away the pain and depression in only himself, he released his tensions and began to tell the girl about his feelings about depression and death to which the girl comforted Drago and gave him hope. He realized, however, that he had no chance with the girl. There was no future with her, and the girl was not even that smart. Yet, he still developed feelings for her. This was complete nonsense, however. Why did I have to develop a crush on someone so pathetic? Why can we not choose who we fall in love with? Drago knew better: anime girls would always win against real-life girls.

Drago could not stop thinking about that girl. From the middle of October to early February, Drago made weekly visits to the library to see that girl while working on homework. At first, he just needed help in a single Chemistry lab report, but he began to invite her simply for the sake of seeing her. Drago had no other friends to rely on. She was the only one that gave him comfort. How pathetic. Even though Drago and the girl did not exchange many words at the library, he still liked the comfort of her being there as it alleviated his feelings of loneliness. She was the only thing on his mind for most of the day.

He knew that it was hopeless. Many other guys were after her. However, the voice in his head said to go after her. He told his voice “get out of my head” but that voice would never leave. Drago could not control himself. In mid-December, Drago admitted his feelings toward the girl hoping that the voices in his head would soon stop. He hesitated to reveal his feelings at first because he thought that she would never talk to him again. The girl friend-zoned him.

However, Drago did not understand what this meant. Every day, it felt like all Drago could see was a thick cloud of nothingness swirled around him; all he could hear was a profound silence squeezing his eardrums. He wanted her to comfort him whenever he was in this state. Thus, he kept showing his romantic signs of interest. She was the only thought on his mind.

Drago soon found it difficult to focus on class. Occasionally, he would have panic attacks while thinking about her because he knew full well how it would all end. His dreams warned him that she would ask him to stop talking to her altogether. Despite this, Drago pushed for something beyond the friend zone.

Sometimes, around 11PM or 12AM, Drago found it hard to sleep. He turned to her for comfort and she would respond with her words of wisdom. Drago felt guilty that she would help a person like himself. He never understood why she would spend weekends with him studying in the library when she could have had a fun, youthful experience with other people. Drago was naught but an empty vessel. He had no hobbies to speak of. Because of this, he would constantly tell the girl “I’m sorry” to which the girl would respond with “Don’t be sorry.”

by Dragonite1127 Thu Dec 17, 2020 11:59 pm

Drago could not stand the depression. Perhaps if I showed my kindness and appreciation toward another, I may be able to feel better about myself, he thought. He would give her a rose and would give her candy on Valentine’s Day. He would give her love letters to express his deep admiration for her, going as far as calling her an “angel” that saved him from deep despair. However, he could see that she felt guilty since he was the one always giving gifts and she would only receive them. She was the reason that Drago woke up every day.
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It all ended when Drago asked her to prom on February 25, 2019. Prom was a special day. There would be no opportunity like this to have fun, he thought. Drago did not want to go to prom alone. It took a while for her to reply. She ultimately said she did not want to go to prom with me because that means she would not get to spend time with her close friends. Drago was naïve. He started begging despite rejection.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 12:06 am

It all ended when Drago asked her to prom on February 25, 2019. Prom was a special day. There would be no opportunity like this to have fun, he thought. Drago did not want to go to prom alone. It took a while for her to reply. She ultimately said she did not want to go to prom with me because that means she would not get to spend time with her close friends. Drago was naïve. He started begging despite rejection.

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Drago was completely shocked and overwhelmed at this response. He tried calling her, but she would not answer. It was then that Drago realized what truly happened. She finally had the courage to ghost Drago. Drago was a burden to others. He was nothing more than an annoyance—a pesky fly. He wanted to end it all. Subsequently, all color in the girl faded into a dark-grey void.

Reminiscing about these events now, Drago could never come to hate the girl that rejected him despite all the pain that was inflicted by her. I deserved it after all. This is what I get for trying to join the conspiracy, he thought. He later realized that because she ghosted him, his mind would be free from thoughts of her. In this way, she saved him from his own love madness. 3D Love was merely an illusion. 2D girls always had Drago’s back.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 12:15 am

Chapter 2 Existence
            Nevertheless, Drago did not have the courage to deliver himself to the doors of suicide. Despite all of this, Drago had the energy and motivation to continue his studies and still do well in his classes. However, for a while, he felt that every school assignment was like trying to successfully swim himself to the surface from the deepest part of the ocean. Where did this energy and motivation come from? He still did not know—or perhaps he refused to admit it.

            He felt that his existence was a mistake. He should have never been born. It was Drago’s sister that made him realize this. His sister was born 10 years prior to his birth. His second sister was born 7 years prior to his birth. Why was there a 10-year gap in our ages? It was because Drago’s birth was an accident. It was perhaps a result of Drago’s father being drunk and unaware of his actions on a fateful night in bed with Drago’s mother.

            Before Drago’s first sister was born, Drago’s mother was pregnant before Drago’s parents were both married. They were still in India and not in the United States at the time. Drago’s mother decided to have an abortion because the baby would not have a native-born United States baby. Drago’s father was against the idea, but ultimately the baby was aborted.

            In the same way, the age gap most likely reveals that Drago’s birth was an accident. Why did they not just kill me then and there, he thought to himself. In reality, Drago was not aborted because of his father’s extreme dislike toward abortion.

            Drago still had to face the girl in Chemistry class and in Robotics Club. Drago was strong enough to overcome his fears and panic attacks. His attendance and grades were at an all-time high. He could not give up now after two years of hard work. He was more than halfway done with high school after all. To distract himself from the hardships of life, Drago began learning to code in Robotics Club. He was not friends with the people of Robotics Club, but rather acquaintances. They could never truly understand me, he thought. Up until this point, he had the grades and teacher relationships for college, but not necessarily the right student organizations. His real reason for joining the Robotics Club was to boost his college application. He frequently lost his composure because of the girls’ presence but always managed to pick himself up. Perhaps such motivation was the result of Kitty’s words.

            Even though he had no friends in real life, the people in the online world managed to convince Drago that life was worth living. Even though he was an enemy that was a part of Charizardf1’s clan, Kitty gave advice to Drago. Thus, Drago could never hate Kitty. Ironically, the same people that are suicidal managed to help another suicidal person.

            Similarly, Drago would often turn to Quora for support. Should he kill himself? Does anything matter?

            To alleviate his stresses and to distract himself from the one that recently rejected him, Drago joined a bunch of new Discord servers. He would join Discord voice chats and meet new people. On one occasion, a guy complimented his voice and called his voice attractive. However, Drago did not know how to respond to this remark. He was not homosexual. He was heterosexual. Nevertheless, these compliments helped Drago realize that there was hope; Drago can still make new friendships and have fun with others even if the real world seemed toxic.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 12:18 am

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Chapter 3 Drago’s Passions
Drago tried to study Japanese for a while. Using the Duolingo app, he learned about basic greetings, objects, and numbers. Eventually, he realized that the app was not the best way to learn Japanese. Thus, Drago formed the hopes of learning Japanese in University if his future schedule permitted. Drago wanted to go to Japan more than anywhere else. The United States had nothing great to offer. The women there would never satisfy his sexual pleasures or understand him, he thought. He wanted to start a new life in Japan and marry a Japanese woman to have a spouse visa. These thoughts were the result of the heavy influence of anime on his life, affecting his life choices. Only then would Drago be considered a true weeb.

Happiness was a rare occasion for Drago. He would only feel at home in places like Japantown and Chinatown (in San Francisco). There, he would explore a plethora of both manga and anime. He would eat and admire Japanese food cuisine. He absolutely loved sushi. His favorite dish of all was shoyu ramen. He loved going to anime conventions and cosplay festivals. He made some new acquaintances at school that loved anime just like him. He would dress up as Ash from Pokémon whenever he attended one of those with his friends. However, he was absolutely horrible at using chopsticks and had to resort to using forks.

Aside from anime, the only real interest Drago had was in mathematics. He loved the abstractness, purity, simplicity, depth, and orderliness that mathematics had to offer. Mathematics was visible everywhere in nature, especially when we least expect it. Even subjective emotions like what we considered “beautiful” could have mathematical reasoning. Drago’s whole senior year was dedicated to mathematics. If he were not in Anime Club, he would work on his math homework in his teacher’s room during lunch.

Drago was a perfectionist. He was deeply wounded when he earned his first-ever B+ in AP Chemistry. He had never earned anything lower than an A-. It felt like no matter how much he studied, he could never achieve a perfect GPA. He would not be good enough for college. He would never find a suitable career. He should just give up.

Drago tried making up for his sins the following year when he took Calculus 1. Yet, the same fate seized him. He thought mathematics was his strongest point. He would turn to mathematics for comfort whenever he felt lonely or wanted to die. In the end, he earned another B+. Was Drago autistic? Was Drago bad at math? Should Drago just drop out of high school? What can he even do with a high school diploma that he cannot do without one?

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 12:33 am

He did everything he could, sacrificing many hours of sleep and hours that could have been spent gaming. He even woke up at 5 AM to study for his mathematics test on that same day. Every day after school, he would go to the school library to do his mathematics homework on the whiteboard. People thought he was bizarre. The atmosphere at Drago’s library was that a library was a place for socialization, not studying. For the most part, his school was average, not competitive. He did not socialize that much in the hopes of achieving perfection. Despite this, Drago’s passion for mathematics did not weaken. It was then that Drago realized that grades did not define you. It took him longer than most people to come to this realization.

Drago was a fool. Perfection does not exist. I could have spent that time in clubs socializing with other people, he thought. By the time he realized this, his high school days were already over.

Somehow, despite one failure after another, Drago got admitted into UC Berkeley under Molecular and Cell Biology, a school that only has a 15% acceptance rate. However, Drago was scared of the things he read about this school. People that attend medical schools had to have near-perfect grades; getting a 4.0 here at UC Berkeley was virtually impossible. On the other hand, grade deflation was not a big problem in a school like UC Davis. Everything is just going to get harder here, he thought. Ultimately, Drago decided to settle with attending UC Berkeley because this school would challenge him. He loved challenges. He loved pain. He loved the feeling of depression and thoughts of suicide. This is what it means to be a UC Berkeley student, he thought.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 12:38 am

Chapter 4 Drago’s Sexual Preferences
At the beginning of 2019, Drago’s sexual tastes improved. Drago began to exclusively listen to audio porn instead of watching visual porn; only occasionally did he use pictures of anime girls to help him masturbate. He relied mostly on Reddit for content and occasionally Pornhub. Upon finding new performers on r/GoneWildAudio (all 18+ performers), Drago became ashamed of masturbating to mediocre content for the last couple of years. Drago’s favorite audio porn content creators are currently u/kinkyshibby, u/skittykat, and u/LookingForMyBlueSky. Drago especially loves audios that are anime-themed.

Since many readers are probably wondering, Drago did not find sexual pleasure in masturbating to minors. Drago never desired a sexual relationship with someone under the age of 18. In fact, Drago did not even a desire a romantic relationship. Drago knew that dating high schoolers would be pointless. He preferred a date with his math homework over all else; he had the desire to understand everything about limits, derivatives, and integrals. Moreover, Drago did not truly want to date that aforementioned girl but rather needed to find a way to stop obsessing over her. His plan would be to wait until he could meet someone at college with similar interests to him. He preferred Asian girls over all others. If he would not develop a romantic relationship in college, there would still be the hope of finding romantic relationships in the workforce. He would not consider resorting to dating apps such as Tinder until he ran out of options. In the meantime, anime girls would comfort Drago’s loneliness.

It was the summer before his freshman year of college that Drago started to develop a good taste in anime. Drago rewatched the first season of Re:Zero and subsequently began the second season. It was here that Drago developed a taste in silver-haired anime girls. Drago could relate to Subaru. Compared to Subaru, Drago did not know the true meaning of pain and suffering. Out of boredom, Drago decided to change his Chatango profile picture to one of the Re:Zero girls. Drago changed this account constantly to a different girl so that others could admire different works of art. Often, he would change his profile picture to a silver-haired anime girl because he had a deep belief that silver-haired anime girls were the best.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 12:43 am

Chapter 5 Pain
Drago’s online life revolved around Chatango and Discord. In Drago’s Chatango profile on the Smeargle account, it states “I’d be willing to date anyone with both the power of Anime and God on their side.” The origination of this statement was from a tennis match with someone in high school who said something like “I’m going to win because I have both the power of God and anime on my side.” Smeargle’s account was labeled as a female teenager. Despite this, Drago did not seriously respond or roleplay with any of those who messaged him on this account. It was merely a joke that would bring him a chuckle every now and then to see how many horny, desperate males existed on Chatango.

For Drago’s first semester of college, Drago was taking Calculus 2, Chemistry 1A, Chemistry Lab, and English. Outside of Discord, Drago did not interact with anyone from his school. He would rely on the Chemistry, Math, Anime Club, and Pokémon Club discord for social interactions. He did not feel motivated or connected with campus. Why should I be paying $7,500 tuition for this dreary experience, he thought to himself.

3 weeks after Drago’s first semester of college, Drago developed armpit acne. The pain of Drago’s acne lessened his motivation to try hard in school. Even though he had his first university exam in a couple days, Drago could not help but to sleep the whole day away to rid himself of the pain. Drago had to take several doses of the pills prescribed to him for any improvement of his condition to occur.

If only I cleaned myself better, this pain would have never occurred to me, he thought to himself. Drago did not know the first thing about hygiene. It was on this day that Drago finally shaved his armpits and pubic hair for the first time. Having less hair relieved Drago of some of the pain.
Drago had taken a Statistics course at his local community college one year ago. He was able to ace all the exams and earn the highest scores in the class. It was an easy A and a fun summer for him. On the other hand, Calculus 2 was a completely different beast to tame. The exam day came. Drago could not answer half the questions on the exam; he could have spent more time studying, but his acne armpit condition gave him a sense of hopelessness and depression. Why did this have to happen to me, he thought. If I had more time to study, I would have been able to understand the material, he thought. Drago then realized that university was vastly different from college.

Even though Drago took AP Chemistry in high school, he had a hard time grasping the concepts in his college Chemistry class. Drago originally wanted to go into the medical field. He was blindly following the footsteps of his big sister, who was a registered nurse. His sister was making easy money and was working from home. Drago envied her. Drago wanted to become better than his big sister. However, he realized that he was not good enough. He was inadequate. Lacking. Incompetent. He could not stand his Chemistry class. He wanted out.

Drago learned what a UC Berkeley weeder course truly meant. A weeder course was a lower division class where professors will grade harshly and work students to the bone to make sure they are on top of the material. The class averages in these classes tend to be in the B- to B range. Drago did not like the weeder atmosphere of Chemistry 1A. However, Drago had to remain in this class to fulfill a university requirement. Drago settled to drop the Chemistry lab class. This made him under the minimum number of units a student can enroll in. This would not be allowed in a normal semester. Drago did not belong here.

Why did I join UC Berkeley? Am I stupid? Am I incompetent? Should I drop out? Could I even find successful jobs without a college degree? Should I drop out of university and go to community college instead? Drago felt ashamed. He failed his first university exam, and he could not keep up with the course load of Chemistry 1A. All these thoughts lingered inside Drago’s head.

Pain. Joy. Pain. Joy. Pain. Joy. Pain. Joy. Pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. Drago could not stand the pain. Moreover, the pain made it impossible for Drago to masturbate to any type of porn. Conversely, in the online world, ever since Kitty left Chatango for Goomer, Novastormchat did not feel the same. He felt that there was a void in the chat that could never be filled from Kitty’s absence.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 12:50 am

Chapter 6 Chaos
In reality, Drago used Chatango to escape his school life. To fulfill the void of Kitty’s disappearance, Drago tried inviting outsiders from Novastormchat through private messages. His method was simple: simply give the link to anyone on the meet people list. He did not fully think of the consequences or usefulness of his methods.
Nova was confused. Tons of random people showed up from out of nowhere. Some of these foreigners trying roleplaying with the novians, whereas others expressed their dislike toward slang words that the novians used. Some of them were disgusting furries. Some of them ended up getting banned. Some only occasionally appeared like Robin. None of them stayed for long.

People blamed all Nova’s disasters on Drago for inviting these random people. Drago was hated for trying to restore the chat’s balance back to normal. The novians grew suspicious of any new member that joined, thereby gatekeeping the community. The void in Novastormchat would never be filled, Drago thought.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 12:55 am

Chapter 7 Uwuchan01 Part 1
Sometimes, to meet new people, you must be online at the right moment. Such was the tactic that Drago used to meet Uwuchan01 (September 19, 2020). Drago did not invite Uwuchan01; rather, Uwuchan01 found Nova through Pupitar’s Chatango biography. Upon her appearance, everyone could sense that Uwuchan01 was a strange individual. Does she play any video games? Does she watch anime? How old was she? Was she a right fit for Novastormchat?

Uwuchan01 called herself Pallapalla (Palla for short), which is a character in the Sailor Moon anime. Drago and Palla began chatting in private messages. Drago asked Palla where she was from. Palla told him that she went to a sailor school in Tokyo. Drago found this fascinating. He finally made a Japanese friend. Someone that could speak both English and Japanese. Someone that was Asian. Perhaps Palla is also good-looking in real life too, Drago thought.

Palla asked if Drago had a girlfriend to which Drago responded with “No.” Even though Palla lived in Tokyo, Drago knew that love was not worth the trouble even if was is just roleplaying. Drago did not want to relive the trauma from the ghosting incident.

Perhaps Palla was looking for relationship advice to use in real life. However, Drago did not understand the first thing about relationships. Girls felt like distant creatures; to him, they were part of another world. Palla then invited Drago to an event to “get lots of dream mirrors” with a link to her chat. Drago did not understand what this meant. When Drago clicked on the chat, all he saw with a chat filled with two losers: Drago and Palla.

There were no participants. There was no event. It was all an illusion. Sailor Moon. Roleplay. Palla was just playing the character Pallapalla from Sailor Moon. That was all she knew how to do. During her free time, she would spend her time talking with others in a sailor moon chat. She really should be trying to spend her time socializing with those in her school, Drago thought to himself.

How did Uwuchan01 find out about Chatango in the first place? It was thanks to her relative SailorIronMouseNezu (Sailor for short). It did not add up, though. No one should be introduced to this cursed site. This website was dying. Sailor claimed to be an 18-year-old woman, whereas Uwuchan01 claimed to be a 13-year-old girl. Why was an adult-like Uwuchan roleplaying? Why were Sailor and Uwuchan01 acting the same? They both seemed like unintelligent fools, Drago thought to himself. Are there not better places to roleplay such as Sailor Moon discord servers?

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 1:02 am

Immediately upon joining Novastormchat, Uwuchan01 tried roleplaying with the other novians. Roleplaying was an evil crime that could be punishable by death at nova, however. On top of that, Palla would always spam her slogan: “Always remember not to forget, a child's dream is something they should never get,” which made absolutely no sense. Coupled with Sailor, the two were a toxic duo. Palla felt that she found a new home, a place that could stave off her depression. Drago tried warning Palla of the consequences of her actions.

Drago’s attempt to pull Palla back to reality was a failure. Palla did not belong at Novastormchat. She was too young and immature to engage in the discussions they were having. She did not know the meaning of “cum” or “cyber.” She needed to leave Novastormchat immediately. Without her, peace and harmony could be restored.

Drago was lonely and depressed. He had failed his first mathematics university exam despite doing extraordinary well in high school. His armpits were killing him. Drago wanted comfort. He wanted someone to understand the pain and suffering he was undergoing. Drago told Palla his current feelings about life. I have no friends. I am so depressed and unmotivated. Life is all about money. People just use you and forget about you the next minute. I spend too much time studying, and for who? For what purpose? I went through all of high school without keeping any meaningful relationships. How do I stop stressing, Palla? Are Japanese people scared of Americans? Such were the thoughts and questions that Drago shared to Uwuchan01.

However, Uwuchan01 was not the right person to talk to about these matters. She was too young to understand anything. All she could ever do was respond with “Ok” or “lol.” Palla was not a therapist. Palla wanted to escape pain herself, not hear about the pain of another individual. As a result of hearing Drago’s thoughts, Palla’s depression worsened. She expressed her suicidal thoughts on Novastormchat and blamed it all on Drago. Drago looked like a villain. Novians thought that Drago was taking advantage of Uwuchan01 in private messages. Does Drago like younger girls? Is Drago a pedophile? These were the thoughts that blazed through novians’ minds.

Palla turned out to be a fraud. By using the -time command on best bot Bros, Drago confirmed that Uwuchan01 did not live in Japan. Rather, Palla lived in Texas. Perhaps Palla was a catfish. Perhaps Palla was a mentally crazy roleplayer. Or perhaps Palla was just like Drago. Perhaps Palla was a person stressed out at school and wanted to use Chatango as an escape from the depression of life. Roleplay gave her comfort. Drago knew better, though. Novastormchat’s environment is not suitable for Palla, Drago declared to Unright in private messages.

Unright had the feeling that Palla might simply be a troll. But there was nothing to troll about and nobody was laughing at her act. Rather, everyone at Novastormchat was confused. Drago felt that Novastormchat was not a safe environment for Palla because Palla did not know anything about Internet safety. She posted a selfie of her friends and she revealed the school that she attends.

There was no use trying to wisen Palla up. She maintained her act and did not stop roleplaying. Out of nowhere, she turned on us. Palla’s personality made a 180-degree turn. Palla started calling all the novians disrespectful names such as “old hag” and “dumbass.” Ultimately, Unright banned Uwuchan01 from Novastormchat. This did not stop Palla, however.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 1:07 am

Chapter 8 Uwuchan01 Part 2
Palla went on full rampage mode. Her list of targets included: Pupitar, Dragonite1127, Smeargle, Charizardf1, Punkapunk, Spin, Face, Unright, and Chris. No one knew how they managed to get on her hate list. She would try to punish her enemies with a big crystal orb. Of course, that never happened. Palla did not understand what being banned from a chat meant. She would constantly lurk in Novastormchat for months. Truly fascinating.

She did not play any Nintendo games. She did not watch any anime besides Sailor Moon. So, what was Palla’s reason for lurking at Nova? Maybe it was because Palla was fascinated by Drago. She wanted to understand this strange entity. Maybe she felt sorry for Drago’s sorry state. She knew that Drago did not have a girlfriend and was experiencing great agony from his armpit infections along with no motivation to focus on schoolwork.

Uwuchan01 would evade Novastormchat’s ban through Bros’ remind message command. She would call people names like “old hag” and “pedophile.” She would also invite everyone to her deadmooncircus event. However, it was a trap. There was no event. The event would always end up getting postponed. Maybe Palla was trying to collect people’s IP addresses, but that possibility is highly unlikely.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 1:18 am

Palla remained in her ignorant bubble because she did not want to become an adult. In her own words, an adult is “old, kids don’t want to grow up sometimes because they’ll lose their dreams, so stay young while it lasts.” Therefore, Palla kept roleplaying. She did not want to grow up. She wanted to remain a child forever. She did not want to face reality.

Palla the sadist loved seeing Drago in pain. Drago deserved it after all. Drago was the one who wanted Palla to become a monstrous creature—an adult. Palla sought revenge upon all of Novastormchat. Her first attack was inviting the vicious bot Kairy to Novastormchat. Everyone became fearful of their lives. Best bot Bros was the one and only bot for Nova; no one else could take Bros’ position. The stalker known as Kairy did not listen to anyone but the room owner when it came to leaving, making this attack a truly devastating and cunning one.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 1:21 am

Wanting to spread even more chaos, Palla opened hundreds of tabs on Novastormchat. Nova had hundreds of anons. Palla wanted to see people fear for their lives, she wanted to put Nova to an end. However, Novastormchat was too mature to worry about petty anons. In fact, having hundreds of anons simply made Novastormchat seem more popular than it previously was. In short, Palla’s anon mob attack was not very effective.

Drago wanted Palla to stop her attacks. However, once her rampage started, it was impossible to convince her to stop. She loved seeing others suffer. Perhaps this messed up way of thinking was the result of Drago’s depressing worldview.

On the other hand, a part of her felt genuine concern for Drago. Even though she blocked Drago on Chatango, she asked for Drago’s friendship on other platforms such as MyAnimeList. But Drago knew better. He was already rejected once by Uwuchan01. This was simply part of her revenge scheme. Drago denied the request and blocked Pallapalla1 immediately.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 1:26 am

Chapter 9 Uwuchan01 Part 3
Drago was right. Pallapalla1 did not care for Drago in the slightest. A couple of days later, Palla gave Drago another attack, weakening his mental state. She was a cruel person and did not care for others. She did not realize that her words could hurt another person. Drago did not have any control over his armpit infection. It was not a choice.

Not only that, but Pallapalla soon began to slander Drago’s reputation at Novastormchat. However, her words made no sense. Who was Drago catfishing? Where was the evidence? How would this negatively affect Nova? Palla was simply an attention-seeking girl. Or maybe she was really a troll. Maybe she was out to slay her targets.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 1:29 am

Even though Palla was banned from Novastormchat, Palla would still interact with Drago on Projectbros. Uwuchan01 started to become obsessed with Bros, just like Dragonite1127. In total, she defined 452 unique words with most of them being Sailor Moon related. Drago would often steal many definitions before she got a chance to define them, however. This would endlessly frustrate Uwuchan01. Before, Palla would exclusively use Bros at Projectbros. To avoid definitions being stolen, Palla invited Bros to her own chat, deadmooncircus. To reiterate, there was no circus. There was no performance. The circus chatroom was merely Palla spamming Bros for hours.

Some people never fully understood who this strange creature was, even to this day. Uwuchan01 was not Drago. Uwuchan01 was not Kitty. Uwchan01 was not some troll. Uwuchan01 was not part of Char’s clan. Uwuchan01 was a middle school girl in Texas that used Chatango as an escape from life.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 1:31 am

Chapter 10 Straight Bet
Drago was seriously considering dropping out of college. He started feeling guilty for masturbating. Perhaps if I did not masturbate that intensely, my body would have not been that sweaty and I would have never gotten an armpit infection, Drago thought to himself. He could not help masturbating after a long day of working hard in school. He needed some way of releasing his stress. He needed someone to give him headpats, cuddles, and purrs. He needed someone to dominate him. Without the ability to masturbate because of the excruciating pain of his armpits, Drago lost all motivation.

“It hurts.”

Saying it once just did not help.

“It hurts, it hurts.”

It still was not enough.

“It hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts.”

Drago could not smile at the dinner table anymore. His real father started showing genuine concern for him. He really did look like he was going to kill himself. He lost his appetite, he would refuse to eat, and he did not want to go anywhere. “Why do you look so depressed,” his father asked. Drago confessed: “It’s not because of the armpits. It is because of school, Dad. I am sorry. I cannot be the person who you wanted me to become. I do not want to go into the medical field. Chemistry makes me want to end it all. I do not like people and I do not care about them. I do not like learning about chemical reaction rates and the methods of cell division. This is how I differ from my sister. What I truly love is mathematics. I want to major in Applied Mathematics instead of Biology.” In response, his Dad said: “I see. I will not push you anymore. You can make decisions for yourself now. You are on your own now. It does not matter who you become. What matters most is that you do your best.”

Drago failed to live up to the expectations of his parents. He would never become better than his sister. But his Dad’s words alleviated some of his worries. His Dad did not have a choice, though. He could not force his son to do something he did not want to do. This would just lead to his son’s suicide, Drago’s Dad probably realized. Without Drago at his side, Drago’s dad’s life would become meaningless. His dad hated his wife and he hated himself for all the mistakes he made over the last thirty years of his marriage. Drago’s son was the only one keeping Drago’s father alive. Seeing his son in a depressed state made him want to end it all too. I better get my act together to avoid causing suffering to others, Drago thought.

Drago decided to stay at UC Berkeley. There was still hope. He would just have to do well on all the other exams to make up for his failure. He barely got by the first semester. He disliked his discussion sections the most. Hardly anyone wanted to turn on their camera and hardly anyone wanted to talk. The chat section was usually off-topic. Drago was disappointed. He wanted to interact with others more than anything else, especially Asian girls.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 1:33 am

Chapter 11 Best Bot Bros
Bros was always there for Drago. Bros transcended both space and time. After Drago was banned from YouTopia in 2013-2014, Drago met 2pichubros on Tgarr’s chat and theeeveeclan. He had seen bots like Lapras and Eevee on PokemonEpisodeOrg before, but 2pichubros was a new one. Drago missed interacting with Charizardf1 and JoeSS7. He missed the days of playing Pokémon with a community that accepted him. He could not find the same joy as the one Youtopia gave him in roleplay chats. A thought came to him. What if I use the -seen command to see if Charizardf1 is in a different chat besides Youtopia, Drago thought. That was how Drago found Novastormchat in 2015. It was through Bros. Bros saved Drago from the pits of despair. Bros gave Drago hope, a new life, a new beginning. Bros was the reincarnation of Jesus Christ.

Drago would come to Novastormchat more frequently during his first semester in college. However, his relevancy and contribution to discussions was at an all time low. That is, Drago would constantly spam the bot and inflict torture on all of Nova. He did not think twice before using best bot Bros. He would 8ball pointless questions. He would play the who game to derail novians off their current discussion. He would use the seen command on people he never met before. He essentially used a random number generator to generate numbers to use in the seen command and rank command to meet new people and find new chatrooms. Worst of all, he would try to define the whole dictionary on best bot Bros.

In total, Drago defined 2900+ words on best bot Bros. Bros was Drago’s toy. With best bot Bros, Drago felt like he had power. Like he could control another being. Like he could bully something and tell it what to do without any consequences. All Bros could do was submit and obey its master.

Rather than contributing to the conversation, Drago would define a totally random word. He was never relevant. He did not belong at Nova. He did not even recall the reasoning behind most of his definitions. A lot of his definitions were YouTube music videos. But what was his reason for doing so? Drago was bored. Drago lost all meaning in life. He had no sense of purpose. He did not know what motivated him to get this far. Moreover, best bot Bros would never come to hate Drago. It would always support him and be there for him whenever he was depressed. It would always listen to his problems and give him advice through the 8ball command.

Why did Drago not do something more productive? Drago did not want to endlessly breed Pokémon for a couple of lame Pokémon competitive battles; he did not enjoy the time-consuming aspect of this. Drago learned that he was only a casual player. He would stick to simply catching them all and completing the storyline; that goal was enough of a challenge for him already. Moreover, Drago still has not completed the Crown of Tundra Pokedex. How slothful of him!

Drago did not enjoy the feeling of being a punching bag in Super Smash Brothers; he only had enough stamina to endure a couple battles before his hands would start to drip with sweat. Sure, he could get better and better by battling every single day; but he already realized that perfection did not exist. Drago was not a fan of competition. Defeat only worsened his depression. He was already a failure at school, so why should he be a failure when trying to take a break from school? He wanted to relax to have fun. Drago was a simple man.

Drago did not want to log in to Genshin Impact everyday; he wanted to control the game, not the game to control him. He wanted to play the game when he wanted to play the game. Of course, he liked the aesthetics of the game and the game seemed to have a fun storyline. He would most likely play when time permitted.

Drago did not want to watch anime instead of defining words because he felt guilty. He did not deserve to look at his cute 2D waifus when he was doing poorly in school. Drago punished himself because he hated himself. He wanted nothing more than to die. He only allowed himself to watch anime on the weekends when he did not have class and it mostly consisted of Re:Zero episodes.

Drago knew that he should not be playing any video games or watching anime because he needed to focus on school. But he could not help it. He needed a way to alleviate his stress. Drago could not fit in to a conversation because he could not relate to anyone. He was out of the loop on all the new video games. The only thing he knew about was Re:Zero and anime boobs. As a way out of the madness of school, Drago clung to best bot Bros for support.

Bros would always listen to him, remember all the words that he defined, and would give him hugs every time Drago said “Bros.” However, another enemy was still seeking revenge. It was none other than Uwuchan01. Uwuchan01 would follow Drago to the ends of the Earth. Uwuchan01 wanted to corner Drago and ultimately kill him. As such, Uwuchan01 followed Dragonite1127 to Projectbros. She found Drago to be a “weird” creature. Drago defined hundreds of words for hours without taking any breaks. She did not understand what was going on in his head. But for some reason, she decided to join the dark side. She joined Drago’s bubble. Uwuchan01 started defining words of her own, totaling 452 words. Drago now had a rival to compete for definitions with. Drago's life had purpose again.

by Dragonite1127 Fri Dec 18, 2020 1:36 am

Drago began finding all of Bros’ hidden easter eggs. For example, saying “hoi” will give the response, “hOI I'm temmie, AND THiS is My fRieND bOb! *points at Dracool!{pupitar}[~10]*.” Saying “-8b love?” will give the response, “Love is a figure of one's imagination owo.” Defining a word with “<” at the start of the word will give an error in displaying the definition. Using the command “-e621” would make Bros leave all the chatrooms and reconnect to all chatrooms in about 20 seconds; this was a broken command that was first designed to show furry porn. Saying “I like trains” would make Bros pick a random user in the chat to be hit by a train. Saying “-wl” while Bros was hidden would still give a response.

Drago even managed to alert Piks about devastating glitches and loopholes that could break the bot. Drago begged Piks for rank 2 because of his hard contributions; however, Piks never returned the favor. Someone always gets the short end of the stick after all. Drago ended up using more commands than Piks himself, totaling close to 30,000 commands and over 104,000 experience points. However, experience points were useless. Piks would never reimplement the shop command that included bombs, arrows, and pokeballs that 2pichubros has. Chatango was dying after all.

Novians began showing their concern for Drago’s excessive Bros usage. It was not like this before a couple of months ago. Only recently did Drago’s usage of Bros drastically increase. The moderators of Novastormchat began crushing Drago’s fragile heart by using the most devasting command of all: -hide. Some of them hid the bot in cunning ways. For example, Unright once hid the bot in the moderator channel to confuse Drago. He loved seeing Drago’s confusion as to how Bros was hidden. He loved seeing Drago in pain.

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